Self-control is something for which I do not strive. Self-control means wanting to be effective at some random point in the infinite radiations of my spiritual existence.

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Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately, in love with suffering. — Fyodor Dostoyevsky

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Yet even if I manage that, one single slip, and a slip cannot be avoided, will stop the whole process, easy and painful alike, and I will have to shrink back into my own circle again.

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You wouldn't believe the kind of person I could become if you wanted it.

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you create your opportunities by asking for them

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I'm not going to continue knocking that old door that doesn't open for me. I'm going to create my own door and walk through that. — Ava DuVernay

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sleep is the most innocent creature there is and a sleepless man the most guilty.

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A first sign of the beginning of understanding is the wish to die. -Franz Kafka

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Some days you just have to create your own sunshine. – Unknown

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This brings me back to the image of Kafka standing before a fish in the Berlin aquarium, a fish on which his gaze fell in a newly found peace after he decided not to eat animals. Kafka recognized that fish as a member of his invisible family- not as his equal, of course, but as another being that was his concern.

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